Memoirs

Tmrw is the first day of Ramdhan which means the Muslims will observe fasting for whole month of Ramadhan(ends on 14 Nov 2004). I remembered on Nov 2002 when I was fasting for a week, I felt so tired and listless. My appetite dipped but still I can't shed off any excess fats a.k.a spare tyre. One moment I was sad thinking my hubby has neglected me after a month of our wedding, at another moment worried dunno for whatever reason and happy at another moment.....why the mixed feelings..I dont know. Went back home to Spore to find out that I was pregnant! No wonder the mood swing. Something pleasant was growing inside me....and that was you Mustaqim. Remembered how delighted ayah looked and emak....she didnt say a word but I know how she felt. She is not a very expressive person at times. My mom in law was there and she said she suppected I was pregnant. I remembered too that Helmi congratulated Dee. Helmi himself was delirious coz his wife was also pregnant. So two babies were on the way. Hmm...a blessings from Allah for the whole family. Well Mustaqim, I have a fair bit of sins I have done in the past. If Allah permits, I would not want you to go thru the sins that I did. I don't know if Allah has accepted and forgive all that I have done. It is not easy, my dear son, to have your sins be trashed away. So please please, look around you and if it is not going to benefit you dunia akhirat, then dont do it! Susah nanti. I have a new lesson to learn today. I have a superior that I report to, who wants the team to be persistant in selling our products(I am in IT company). He said that he heard someone sitting opposite me(from different team and department) and said that her selling skills are good. I agree that she is good but you can't compare this team with her. Firstly, she is doing telemarketing and secondly she has all the materials solid ones...that is why she is confident! I am not trying to argue abt this issue but in order to make comparison, u have to compare equally. Okay we are not as motivated as she is but who is? The country we are supporting didnt even help to feed info and just advertise the product as and when they wish. And when customers ask, then only they will give us the info and it is not a complete info. And my superior, he himself didnt show good example as a leader. Surf the internet that has got nothing to do with work, do personal outbound calls during office hours....and the lists goes on and on. At the end of the day when the manager reprimand why the team did not perform, he will press the emergency button and tell us to pull up our socks! I told him, why not one day he try to answer the phone as an agent on a trial basis and see where we fall short. When he has a hand-on experience, then only he can filter the problems we are facing and makes him a better critic. Right? Ok I feel better now after writing this. Mustaqim, now is 1151h. I have 9hours to go before I come home to meet you. I wonder what and how you are doing.