The Bad Dream

I dread going to sleep these days. I always got a bad bad dream. It won't bother me that much if my nitemares involved ghosts and vampires, etc. But it bothered me to the extreme when all my nitemares are abt my hubby having an affair. I understand that dreams are not real. I don't believe in dreams. Dreams are just to lullaby us into a deep sleep. However, this crazy nitemare happens 3-4times a week. At times I woke up in cold sweat and see if next to me is my Mansor, my hubby. But when he was not there, my heart will palpitates. I think I was paranoid for no reason. If he is not in the room with me, he is always at the hall watching tv(or the tv is watching him :p). Just yesterday, I woke up at 0435h becoz I dreamt that he was entertaining a sexy girl getting dressed. I was there but he ignored me. I woke up feeling upset and woke him up to tell him I had that bad dream again. He smiled at me and told me this, "Was the girl pretty?" Damn! I was fuming and my "WHAT??" startled him. He said he was just joking. I said at this point, I can't take jokes. I asked if he was serious. He said that he would never do it. If he had wanted to, he could have done it when he was a swimming instructor teaching female adults. Why lah...why am I so paranoid? Why this dream kept coming back? Just this morning over breakfast, I repeated what he told me. He said to trust him and he has no intention to do it. He told me that he even spoke to his colleague abt the perpetual dream I had. His male colleague said he too got reprimanded by his wife whenever he comes home late. I called my mom for assurance, she said not to think of it. She said it will just make me more stressful. Mom is so sure that her son in law will not resort to such uncouth behaviour. Sigh.....why do I feel so insecured. I know although my hubby is a quick tempered man, he is such a dotting father and a responsible hubby. I shud give him that much trust. Just that all these dreams make me have sleepless nites. And that's the reason why I will not go to sleep until he is back home from work. I hate to sleep...hate it! :p